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My 5 Top Reasons for Giving Up Drink

  1. Becoming an antisocial
  2. Developing a taste for heights (Climbing scaffolding)
  3. Sleep walking home from the pub
  4. Hangovers taking longer and more difficult to get over
  5. Watching my life disappear in a drunken haze

There we are – my top 5 reasons why I gave up drinking. Of them all, the taste for climbing was most worrying. I started doing this whilst at college. One night I found myself on a ledge at the back of a nightclub, oblivious to how dangerous it was. It was at least 3 stories up and would have been a certain end to me, had I fallen.

It didn’t stop at ledges, I enjoyed climbing scaffolding as well. Totally oblivious to the danger to not just me, but those around me, especially if id fallen and hit someone. I would always wake in the morning in disbelief that I’d done that. Not sure how I could have done something so stupid, but at the time the drink is in you egging you on. Pushing you…relentlessly.

“Have another it would say in your ear”, “you’ll be ok”. “You don’t need to think about giving up drink”

I never was though, I always was an early casualty and left the bar or club early too drunk to really know what I was doing. The scrapes I got into. Talk about a cat with 9 lives…I must have got to the 8th when I finally decided to stop!

Sleep walking was another worrier. I don’t know how I did it, but I’d regularly fall asleep walking home from the bar late at night. I walked into buildings, literally the walls and quickly woke up. I was getting bruised and scraped and had to explain marks to work colleagues, who must have whispered behind my back. They must have realised, except I never did. It’s only now that I think back and wonder if they did know I had a problem and just couldn’t control my drinking.

Watching my life disappear before me, my 20s went really fast and my 30s were speeding along quickly too. Suddenly I saw myself as an old drunk, lurching from one bar to the next, on my own. With friends married off with families, I knew that I really didn’t want this to happen to me. I wanted to take some control of my life.

In the end I knew deep down that I had to give up drinking. It was no longer funny to look back and think about lucky escapes. There is only so much luck in life and I figured that if I pushed it too much, too often, I’d end up regretting it, and really regretting it at that!

So my top 5 reasons are still good enough to stop me from imagining for a second that having a drink now would be a good thing to do. I know that I have to be sober the rest of my life. I know that it isn’t a vacation I’ve taken, it’s a life choice. But you know what? It gets more and more comfortable the feeling of knowing that with care and attention I am going to be sober the rest of my life and I’m going to have such a better life because of that. :o)

Comments

  1. I love this post. Especially the last line.

    • Hi Lisa,
      Glad u liked it. My reasons for giving up keep me strong…the last line makes me smile ruefully…so many years wasted boozing, but clean and sober now, and so much happier!

  2. Hi – tried to post before but my laptop went silly on me. Heights are not my problem thank goodness! I guess I don’t really drink to that extent. In truth, I rarely get drunk but I drink a bit too much a lot too often. If it were just social drinking I might not even have a problem with that, but I drink alone most days – couple of big glasses of wine while I’m getting dinner and before my husband comes home. I will almost certainly have another one after that – at least one – while I’m faffing around in the kitchen. As a consequence the rest of my evening is spent trying to pretend I’m sober and drinking vast quantities of tea and water to try and stave off the inevitable dehydration and hangover. I’m often successful too – but that just tells me that my tolerance levels are increasing. I don’t know if my husband is worried about me – he never says anything but I can sense his irritation sometimes and I catch him looking at me sideways sometimes. I don’t like myself much when I’m drinking either. I feel weak and stupid and it ruins the evening for anything more worthwhile. For the last couple of years I have stopped drinking for Lent – not for religious reasons so much, as to ‘test’ myself and actually also to give myself a chance to stop without having to justify myself to everyone. I felt great and managed without too much hardship at all, so I actually don’t know why I re-started. I guess it’s easy to stop when you know it’s not forever. Ok – rambling a bit now, so I will stop for now. You’re an inspiration and this is day 1.

    • Hi Kitty,
      Glad to hear that you feel I’ve inspired you to also give up. I’m just pleased that my blog has helped people realise that there is a life, a very happy and full one, without drink in it.

      Drink is a great distraction, you never know it might help you get closer to your husband.
      Good luck on your journey and keep in touch.

      JB.

  3. I think 4 and 5 are two of the bigger reasons as I feel those two are the ones that really affect your life the most.

  4. I gave up two days after Christmas day, I woke that day with a toxic feeling from head to toe, I told myself that my whole being was polluted, alone for two years after a 16 year rollercoaster ride of a relationship the lightbulb suddenly flicked on!
    I thought back to as far as I could go as an adult and focused on the many bad things I’d done and terrible decisions I’d made, ALL of them were through alcohol induced state of being. The lightbulb glowed brighter and brighter the more I studied the past.

    I searched online and stumbled upon bipolar forums and suddenly found myself fitting that bill, I researched some more and convinced myself that I am bipolar2.

    After 12 days I feel a lot better, the road is just beginning, I am not experiencing manic episodes or deep depression, my parents have noticed a change and I must carry on with the abstaining.

    I really crave a beer, but don’t ever want to go back to extreme ups and downs, whether it is bipolar2 or alcohol simulating that syndrome I have yet to find out.

    I am starting to look forward to life, not as much as I would like but a lot more than I did, I am still on edge though, scared of failure.

    I’m glad I found this site. 🙂 that’s all for now I’m off for a cup of tea.
    Johnee

    • Glad u found my blog too, and hope the stories here help you as much as they have me. It’s such a liberating feeling at the beginning when you give up drinking. Stick with it and take it a day at a time.

      James

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